I don’t know if I’m just having a temporary case of the blues or if I should seek professional help. I could use some advice.

This is how my life is:
I get up and go to school (I’m 17) and sometimes it’s hard for me to stay there all day. Most days I get so upset for no real reason and I can’t stay at school because I don’t want to burst into tears in front of everyone, so I just drive home.
When I’m with my friends (I don’t have many, just 2 or 3 that I consider real friends) I can laugh, have fun, go places..but when I get home by myself, I feel like crap. I lay in bed just crying wondering how my life got so messed up. I think about suicide a lot, though I could never in a million years do it, I still do think about it.
Sometimes at school I get picked on. It’s not an everyday thing, it doesn’t really happen that often, but it still does happen sometimes. Most of the time I’m just ignored. No one pays attention to me, when students are passing out papers to the class, sometimes I get “accidentally” skipped. Or when a substitute for the teacher is calling roll, when they call my name, sometimes people are like “Who is Molly?”
I feel guilty about the randomest things. Yesterday at 5:00pm I realized I hadn’t eaten all day and decided I needed to eat something. As soon as I got done eating I felt like I did something wrong. I can’t really explain it.. Like I didn’t deserve to eat, or there’s other things I could be doing for someone else instead of worrying about myself.
I recently started smoking pot and cigarettes (worst mistake of my life) but I just can’t seem to stop no matter how much I try. I just want to feel numb so I don’t have to feel pain I guess?
Then I cry about that, too, because I want to stop but just can’t.
Sometimes I feel I have no energy, even if I haven’t even done anything to make me physically tired.

I really want to feel better, but I don’t know what to do.

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I was diagnosed with “type 1 bipolar disorder with psychotic features” in july. I’m turning 16 tomorrow, so its a pretty early diagnosis. After being pretty stable for a few months, my emotions took a turn for the worst, and I’ve been so low. I started cutting again and withdrawing from everyone. I cry consistently,
Does anyone else suffer from the problem? Any tips on making my highs and lows a bit less dramatic? I’m pretty new at learning how to cope with this illness.

I’ve been browsing the web in hopes of finding a medication that will work for a young man aged 20 who is suffering these illnesses and whose psych doesnt seem to know what to prescribe or really care. He has morbid hallucinations and severe mood swings and a desire to kill himself. There are so many different meds for this – and we need to find the RIGHT one for him quick. So whatever advice and experience is offered will be greatly appreciated. Thanks!

ive been feeling sad, happy glad relax, irritaded, one after the other. then i go back feeling irritaded, so im not sure if it has to do with bipolar sindrome, or im just simply trying to feel relax but i cant and so i feel angry again. or it might be that im to stress?

I’ll try to make this as short as possible, but sorry because I probably won’t succeed.

I’ve been dating this guy for about 14 months on and off now. He has bipolar type 2 and was just diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. In the beginning of our relationship he was basically fine and did not tell me about the bipolar, but after about 2 months and me already falling hard for him, he finally told me when he started getting low again. I never did any research, which was just plain stupid of me, but I have been doing a lot lately on the BPD and bipolar since he told me about the BPD. He has disappeared many times because he says he wanted to protect me. He is not verbally abusive in anyway, as I hear many are with bipolar. He is very sweet, thoughtful, loving, and really just wonderful! He’s very smart and mature and often selfless, he is very honest, does not cheat, does not beg me to stay-if anything, he’s often trying to get me to go because he thinks I deserve better.

He has very low lows and not very high highs I am very much in love with him and he loves me to, but he is constantly trying to protect me from him, not letting me see his lows. Now that I’ve read up on the BPD, I think there’s more to it, though. I think he is afraid to trust me and he is afraid to let me all the way in because of his abandonment issues. Plus I believe he is ashamed to really open up to me and tell me the total truth. I am so transparent, though! I am so open about my emotions and what I’m thinking. I’ve told him many times that unless he truly doesn’t want me anymore, I want to be with him-that I won’t just run one day! I’m tough! I’ve been through many things in my life that I think have prepared me better than most for a relationship with him. I’ve felt a lot of what he is feeling in lesser forms. I understand how it feels to hate myself, hate my life, feel like a burden, feel unworthy, be insecure, etc. I know how it feels to not want to get out of bed in the morning. But I believe a part of him thinks I cannot handle it. I look young for my age-I’m 26 and look 17 with the voice of a 12 year old-I’m not exagerating. And he’s told me that he often feels like he should be taking care of me (he’s 31)-like I need to be cared for, which is soooo far from the truth. I may look young and innocent, but I am not. I am not some naive girl who has no clue what she’s getting herself into witth him. And I’ve lost enough in my liffe to know when there is something truly worth holding onto-he is worth it. He is honestly just amazing! And what we have-the chemistry, the bond, everything-is just too good to turn my back on because it can get hard sometimes.

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diagnosis and prognosis

Thanks everyone for all the Answers..I have a friend that was diagnosed & being treated so I’m ready to take the next Step..God Bless you all this is difficult..

are on and off thoughts of suicide normal?

serious answers pls.

I have a friend who i think may be bipolar. he used to be this reall happy, cares-about-everyone kind of person, but since his exgirlfriend started going out with another guy, he has been suicidal and has been literally trying to kill the guy. this just isnt like him. is he bipolar?