Mental issues, Shrink, Hallucinations, Bipolar.?
I gotta stop asking for help, but I didn’t get too much my last question, and I really need help.
I am Bipolar type 1. I am severely depressed, often (Especially now) suicidal.
I used to self injure but pretty much turned away from that out of laziness and a lack of interest in anything. Including SI.
A few people told me I am schizophrenic as I have chronic hallucinations and convulsions, but others told me that is my sever Bipolar.
So what am I to do? I need to deal with it but I can not tell my parents, or do anything allowing them to know.
Don’t tell me to call a suicide hotline. (Did you know THEY CALL THE COPS ON YOU!)
Can I see a psychiatrist without my parents finding out? Preferably over internet or phone?
How can I quell the hypnagic hallucinations, as well as full awake hallucinations, and chronic nightmares, as well as sleep paralysis.
Hypnagogic hallucinations, if you dont kow are where you have a ‘bad dream’ when you lie down immediately and think you are awake.
How could I go about that confidential of my parents? I am 14.
I used to smoke weed to calm me down but now it just aggravates the hallucinations.
My life means something to me, but only to the extent of my 2 best friends. Otherwise I would be killing myself right now, but if I do, they will also.
But still I have these thoughts.
I cannot confide in an adult who has the power to bring me to a shrink, I have none I can trust ;(.
Now I am feverish, tired (I cannot sleep) sweating, and having trouble breathing. I cannot get deep breaths.
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Filed under: Bipolar Type 1
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I honestly don’t know. I think if any progress is to be made, you have to admit to people you have a problem and see a REAL specialist, not some jerk on the end of a phone who couldn’t give a crap about you.
Look, if you wan’t to STOP this problem, you have to tell your parents. I’m sorry, but there it is, and don’t turn away, because if you won’t hear it today, you’ll hear it o far down the line you’ll be beyond salvage. LISTEN TO ME. I HAVE BEEN THERE. Your parents WILL be there for you and you just damn well have to suck up some courage and sart being a man.
well if your under 18 which i assume you are you cannot see a doctor without your parents knowledge because you dont have health insurance. look, the only way to get better is to be honest and open with loved ones. when you dont tell them things that are troubling and bothering you it just builds up and gets worse. if you want any chance of recovering come clean and tell your parents and seek help. it will be hard but once everything is out in the open and the healing process begins i guarantee you will feel 100 percent better. i know because i was once in your shoes and didnt want to0 tell my parents, but i finally did and have been on medication and getting healthy ever since. please tell your parents and see a doctor, its the only way you will feel better. take care.
In some states you can see doctors without parent permission at age 12, if there is danger that if they know about your illness you will suffer bad effects.
Really, if you value your life at all, you need to find one adult you can trust, and ask them for help, in person.
why would you mess with your life like that. Go to your family doctor, or a clinic, or the ER and get properly diagnosed and treated and get on to a good life. You could try going without them; but reality is you would have to tell them eventually, whether you want them to hear it or not. At this point if things are as dire as you say; then what the heck tell parents and get the help you need. The longer you wait you worsen your illness; whatever it is.
I agree; not sure what age limits are from state to state but if you are that in dire straits you could try going to see a doctor by yourself; anything to get to the bottom of things.
oh my god you must be so scared trying to cope on your own…please tell your parents they will help i promise. you are so young and have your whole life ahead of you and there are so many brilliant drugs and doctors these days who can get you totally back to normal ,you dont have to suffer alone and dont wait until you cant cope any more. If you live in america their hospitals are probably the best in london we are told that. The worrying will make the symtoms worse and please please please stay off the weed and any other allegal drugs and alcohol because they will make it a lot worse…go on..tell them now xxxxxxxxxxx
Hi John:
I understand completely what you are saying. I too have Bipolar 1 Severe and have high suicidal tendencieds and attempted 2x. but that was before, this is now and I am still here, Amen.
I am very glad that you do not SI anymore. That is a positivily great sign that you have overcome that desire and need to SI. To have conquered it and became the victor. Great for you. This also tells me that you have a great amount of strength and determination which is just what you need in life, but more than ever now is the time to call upon that courage, strength and determination. So please try and do that, no not for me but for yourself.
Who has been telling you these things? I certainly hope it is a qualified psychiatrist and no one else. This is too dangerous for others to attempt to diagnose you when they have no where near the qualifications of a medical expert…the psychiatrist.
It sounds to me as if you are not under any type of treatment at all for this. Everyone and I do mean EVERYONE at some poit (or More) in their lives needs to call on others for support and / or help. This is that time for you. Right now before you get worse and are not able to control your actions towards yourself or towards others.
You are 14! You don’t have to live your life like this, no one does. You need them right now. Whether you want to admit that or not to yourself the fact still remains that you need them. They are you Mom and Dad, go to them for help, honey your life is in danger and this is not a time for battles of the wills between parent and child. ASK the for HELP NOW, please.
Why is it that you don’t want them to know? It is nothing to be ashamed of. Nothing at all.
As far as I know, the law states that anyone under the years of 18 years of age must be notified should that child seek medical attention. So I do not know how you will get around that, nor do I want you to get around that. I would love to her you talked with your parents.
I wish that I could help you with you hallucinations but I cannot as I am just begining to have very small ones myself.
I do wish you all the best and I pray that you will find the help that you need and I also will pray that you will have the courage to go to Mom and Dad. They need to know.
You be safe my friend, and get the medical attention that you need and deserve.
I will hold you in my prayers.
dude, dont ask why your like this or get shitty about it…..you smoked dope of course your like this. im somewhat like this but i never did drugs….so i didnt even get the fun of it!!! just chill…..comon hellucnation arent that bad…if they really bother you just get some anti psychotics….pop into your doc and ask him to evaluate you. your not schizo….how long has all this been happening anywho?? if not longer than 6 months for the hellucinations then give it a bit…..cause it might just be one of those things.
i want to know how the hell you got weed.. lol.. :p naaahh come on buddy… wait maybe the weed was medicinal.. hrmm.. anyways wait.. SUCIDE HOTLINES CALL THE COPS ON U!?!?
Does the guidance department at your school work during the summer? If they do, go there. If they don’t… then you should see a doctor.