Is it a miracle that I survived this?
I am 23 years old, have Bipolar disorder (hereditary, my father has it), anxiety/panic disorder, depression/suicidal thoughts. I can’t work, been out of work for a year and half. I am trying to get on disability. The day before yesterday, I overdosed on my Xanax, 0.5mg. I took 24 pills total to try to kill myself. I went to the hospital, they didn’t pump my stomach, but they did run an I.V. with a lot of fluid (not sure what kind it was). I woke up, and my husband said I was unconscious for 11 hours. I was then baker acted for approximately a day and a half, and I am now home.
Has anyone experienced this or is going through mental illness like I am? I would just like to know if I am not alone in this. Thank you in advance for your answers.
I also want to say that this was the first time I ever took pills in excess like this. I used to cut myself as a teenager, when I was 16. I feel grateful for my life right now, that I survived this.
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I have a feeling that you just described most people on this site. Just replace “bipolar disorder” with schizophrenia, and you’ve got me. So you’re not alone.
There’re lots of people suffering like you are. Get an attorney who advertises a specialty in getting disability. They can speed it up a great deal. You need constant therapy and possible medicine changes until some combo is found to help more.
Most cities hae groups you can go to where members suffer what you do and they talk about all their issues. You’ll find answers and helpful things there and friends.
One fact, one that you probably should not know is that it is easier to kill yourself taking aspirin than xanax. A lot of the psychiatric drugs are made with the thought in mind that people might want to intentionally overdose.
I think that you learned a lesson. It is a miracle that you are here because you meant to harm yourself. Remember this in the future. People who take overdoses end up with a life altering health issue to deal with more than a deathly outcome. Some people succeed.
I think at this time of reflection you need to not look at what your family history is (Heredity) as much as what your history is.
Until you realize that you are here for a purpose and that if you would quiet down your mind and listen that purpose will come to you than you will continue to experience these issues.
I am not just talking off the cuff, I dont want to go into my story, but if you only knew it you would understand how much I do really understand why you are at and why I am in this section on this site.
Love life young lady, love your husband and experience the gift you have. You know that when you get in a bad space you should journal your thoughts, you know your coping skills, and the fact you chose not to use them is something that until you take responsibility for you will not heal.
I wish you the best, dont mess around again with overdosing.
Get the help you need, YOU are a miracle
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Listen. The world is FULL of people with problems. Everyone has a problem.
I have seen a lot of success with some of the alternative medicine out there with a lot of these chemical imbalance/mood disorder stuff.
I encourage you to check out my sources and really do some research. There is a lot of new science coming out that changes the entire perspective on all diseases.
If you’re really want to get better the information is out there.
Not too long ago, I attempted suicide by taking 70 of my seroquel pills. Doctors said it is a true miracle that I survived that. I don’t even remember what happened in the hospital when I was first admitted and I was later admitted to the psychiatric ward for 9 weeks. I was diagnosed with Post traumatic stress disorder from the sexual abuse I experienced from my grandfather, I was physically and verbally abused by my dad, I was placed in group homes and foster homes, my mom attempted suicide like it was her hobby. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety problems. It’s never ending. Oh yea, and Post Partum depression. I am finally going to start seeing a psychiatrist soon and thank god, because I am so deep into this depression, it’s just a downward spiral. I hope you feel better and I hope you get the help you need.
“I feel grateful for my life right now, that I survived this.”
Just remember that next time you feel all sad.