It’s been going on for about a year. I’ll have episodes of depression and than be super hyper for no apparent reason for both. Also, sometimes my mind is racing and I can’t concentrate on some things like I used to. My brother has Bipolar type 2, he was diagnosed about 2 or 3 years back. I’m really worried about it and I’m starting to be really irritable and what not FOR NO REASON. My boyfriend has even noticed that I’ll be irritable randomly and what not. I don’t want to mess up anything. I know I should see a psychologist. But where do I start? Do I make an appointment and be like “I think I have this?” and than like they give me medication? Or what? I’m 20 years old. I want to go into Nursing in about a year. I want to take care of this now if there is anything wrong with me. Oh sometimes I’ll feel both at the same time! Hyper and jumpy yet depressed at the same time. What can I do? What has medication done for you? etc?
That’s the point. I have been mad one moment and than happy. Or depressed one moment and than mad. I know BIpolar one is worst that two. Two expreinces like little to no mania or whatever.

First off I haven’t seen my boyfriend in TWO YEARS.
We just got back together.

He got back last weekend and he stayed over at my place for the weekend… during the week he was being really talkative, paranoid and giggly..

He then left to go AN HOUR away to stay with our friends and look for work..

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My daughter was born in 2003 and I was diagnosed in 2006 with bipolar type 2 (and I also suffer from anxiety.)

Her father and I were never in a loving relationship. We had been friends in college and one time… our friendship went beyond those boundaries and…my daughter was conceived. We have shared custody (every other week), and I’ve always tried to have a good relationship with him (as partners in parenting our child).

Now five years has gone by and for the past couple of years he’s been bullying me, treatening me and trying to control me out of fear. He always says that I shouldn’t “dare” defy him and his decissions because he will use my bipolar illness against me and take my daughter away from me. Mind you all, I am medicated, stable and even go for regular therapy and I am an outstanding mom (never neglected my child or anything of that sort).

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I have bipolar type 2 – today after several tests and many days of having trouble breathing and coughing a lot it was found I have asthma – ventolin on its own wasnt doing anything so the Dr gave me prednisolone tablets (take 2 for 3 days then 1 per day) along with Ventolin nebules 4 times per day through nebuliser – after 1 dose of the pred and ventolin I felt much better breathing wise however when talking on the phone my relative I was talking to pointed out that I was talking really fast and mentioned it a few times and I have had trouble keeping track of my thoughts so I have taken 2 valium and 2 alodorm and my usual dose of 400mg of Seroquel and hours later although I dont feel so speedy I am nowhere near tired and that was a couple of hours ago and here in Australia I should be starting to get tired – Im going to call my psychiatrist tomorrow to see what he has to say but I feel for my breathing sake I need to stay on the pred and ventolin for at least a few days but wonder which of these drugs or is it both that has set this mania symptoms off??

Looking up the net I see Prednisolone can cause mania after just one dose but not a lot on ventolin nebules (puffer doesnt cause this reaction in me)

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It’s been going on for about a year. I’ll have episodes of depression and than be super hyper for no apparent reason for both. I can get angry/irritated for no reason. I may get randomly angry or irritated for no reason maybe once a week, average. it’s very small. But I get really upset or sad randomly too. Sometimes I’ll act “normal” but than randomly I’ll get sad for a bit. Also, sometimes my mind is racing and I can’t concentrate on some things like I used to. My brother has Bipolar type 2, he was diagnosed about 2 or 3 years back. I’m really worried about it and I’m starting to be really irritable and what not FOR NO REASON. My boyfriend has even noticed that I’ll be irritable randomly and what not. I don’t want to mess up anything. I know I should see a psychologist. But where do I start? Do I make an appointment and be like “I think I have this?” and than like they give me medication? Or what? I’m 20 years old. I want to go into Nursing in about a year. I want to take care of this now if there is anything wrong with me. Oh sometimes I’ll feel both at the same time! Hyper and jumpy yet depressed at the same time. What can I do? What has medication done for you? etc? ((I can’t go to him for advice, my brother, cuz he lives in another country, so yea…))

I was diagnosted in 2006 with bipolar type 2. ( I suffer more from deppression than mania…and my manias aren’t extreme, they are hypomanias…)

Doctors have tried SO MANY medication on me, I feel like a lab rat!

Either the meds made no improvement on me, or the side effects were to strong/or dangerous for me to continue them.

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I randomly get mad at small things. Other times, I could care less.
I hate being lied to, especially if it is for the liar’s benefit.
I feel betrayed if I thought I knew something about someone, but it’s not true.
I get this really bad gut feeling and can’t control myself when I feel betrayed.
I hate people based on my first experience with them. After that, it’s very hard to reverse that hate.
I am a realist, but I always plan for the worst to happen.
I get very pissed off when people believe a lie about anything.
I hate certain groups of people.

I get frustrated easily.

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What are the symptoms that aren’t on google? Or what are your symptoms if you have it. I think I MIGHT have it. I’ve seen psychiatrists before and they think maybe the lesser type (Bipolar Type 2). But I’m in total denial about it, I really don’t want to have it lol. But now it’s starting to bother me, I pushed aside the diagnosis for 5 years but I’m sick of being depressed. And changing my mind. It’s weird I can’t control it. The problem is that I don’t want to take medicine that will make me gain weight. I need to get healthy and I don’t want to risk anything. What should I do? Should I just suck it up and deal? I seem to only decide to do therapy when I’m depressed but when I’m not I change my mind. I hate being so inconsistent.

Here’s a little biographical and psychological information about myself. I’m 21 years old. I’ve been taking medication for ADHD since I was 16. Very recently I was diagnosed as bipolar type 2, which I had suspected for a while as the disorder runs in my family and I’d noticed symptoms. I don’t want to take medication because it will curb my ambition and possibly affect my entrance into the Peace Corps. Yet that’s another story.

Most of my life I have been fairly outspoken, unafraid of how others might react when I express my opinions or feelings. This actually achieved some great results, as three years ago I really liked the person I was becoming. I liked the people I was hanging out with. I made decisions. I was a secure person.

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I’ll try to make this as short as possible, but sorry because I probably won’t succeed.

I’ve been dating this guy for about 14 months on and off now. He has bipolar type 2 and was just diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. In the beginning of our relationship he was basically fine and did not tell me about the bipolar, but after about 2 months and me already falling hard for him, he finally told me when he started getting low again. I never did any research, which was just plain stupid of me, but I have been doing a lot lately on the BPD and bipolar since he told me about the BPD. He has disappeared many times because he says he wanted to protect me. He is not verbally abusive in anyway, as I hear many are with bipolar. He is very sweet, thoughtful, loving, and really just wonderful! He’s very smart and mature and often selfless, he is very honest, does not cheat, does not beg me to stay-if anything, he’s often trying to get me to go because he thinks I deserve better.

He has very low lows and not very high highs I am very much in love with him and he loves me to, but he is constantly trying to protect me from him, not letting me see his lows. Now that I’ve read up on the BPD, I think there’s more to it, though. I think he is afraid to trust me and he is afraid to let me all the way in because of his abandonment issues. Plus I believe he is ashamed to really open up to me and tell me the total truth. I am so transparent, though! I am so open about my emotions and what I’m thinking. I’ve told him many times that unless he truly doesn’t want me anymore, I want to be with him-that I won’t just run one day! I’m tough! I’ve been through many things in my life that I think have prepared me better than most for a relationship with him. I’ve felt a lot of what he is feeling in lesser forms. I understand how it feels to hate myself, hate my life, feel like a burden, feel unworthy, be insecure, etc. I know how it feels to not want to get out of bed in the morning. But I believe a part of him thinks I cannot handle it. I look young for my age-I’m 26 and look 17 with the voice of a 12 year old-I’m not exagerating. And he’s told me that he often feels like he should be taking care of me (he’s 31)-like I need to be cared for, which is soooo far from the truth. I may look young and innocent, but I am not. I am not some naive girl who has no clue what she’s getting herself into witth him. And I’ve lost enough in my liffe to know when there is something truly worth holding onto-he is worth it. He is honestly just amazing! And what we have-the chemistry, the bond, everything-is just too good to turn my back on because it can get hard sometimes.

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